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by NightRaven

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NightRaven Heheh, late night update...

I've been working for you guys quite a bit, more than you think...
And I have a lot to get off my chest from this
I deprive myself of sleep every night, not just because of insomnia, but for you guys...(I stay up until around 2:00 AM almost every night, now, with the addition of waking up very early...)
I've been feeling a bit more depressed lately. The thoughts are returning...
I'm terrified of all of this, for some reason, fearing the judgement of others...
I want to take a break for once, but I know I can't...

Insomnia sucks. So bad.

I'm sorry that everything is slowing down and dying...
I'm starting to feel a bit worthless and I'm starting to disapprove of my own work again...
I'm sorry that this is happening...and I can imagine that you're probably frustrated with me...
Don't worry, though...I can understand it...

I haven't been feeling too well either: every now and then I feel like I'm not far from vomiting.
As in, my throat burns really badly and it's not fun (now to try and figure out what it is). The heat of summer (especially where we live) kinda gets to me, along with the endless mosquitoes (why do they exist...)...
All in all, life isn't very fun right now. Illness-ish, insomnia, depression, dead self-esteem, and loads of work all added in one bundle is what is crushing everything on me right now...

I...apologize...
NightRaven, Jul 15, 2017
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  1. Twilight Nova
    Twilight Nova
    Bro. It's alright. I know this is late, but don't overwork yourself. Take time for yourself to relax and do something that makes you feel happy ^.^
    Aug 7, 2017
  2. The paper bag Kid
    The paper bag Kid
    I really hope you feel better!! please take as much time as you need to rest and take care of your self!

    You are super important and a great person! and your art is wonderful! [​IMG] don't worry! everything will be ok ♥
    Jul 15, 2017
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  3. NightRaven
    NightRaven
    I have issues, trust me. ^^' I'm drawn to working for those online than actually trying to keep myself merely alive. Stress weighs a number on me, but I will try to fight against it all to the best of my ability.
    Jul 15, 2017
  4. parisbuffet
    parisbuffet
    Dude. While it's super important to keep practicing, taking care of yourself is a much bigger priority by a nautical mile. That usually helps you feel better, too. Getting a good rest, remembering to eat, shower, etc. Pushing yourself will probably just keep you frustrated and I can guarantee your progress won't be stunted if you relax and take as much time as you need to recover yourself. Please get some perspective. I have insomnia too and constantly stay up hours past midnight, so going to bed much earlier (6 or 7pm for me) will do you wonders, trust me. It's summer so sleeping in shouldn't be a problem but if you really need it then try popping a pill.

    Sorry for the paragraph but I've seen this happen to people a lot and it's just super self-destructive. :(
    Jul 15, 2017
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